School.

So many things had happened these days. Couples in school everywhere. I'd always feel lonely in class, now, again. My girl best friend found her Mr.Right now. Happy for her. But there's one bad thing, our friendship seemed like walking to the end. Well, I understand sometimes people just need their time for their boyfriend/girlfriend, so well, I'll just leave her with her boyfriend.

Like usual, I went to her blog. I read something that really hurts. Well.. I don't need to explain much if you really understand me. If you don't understand me, there's no point explaining.

I don't know if you're reading this, but just wanna let you know I really wish that I can help you back sometimes since you helped me a lots in my studies for example biology, chemistry or physics. The thing that I can help is only yr BM and Maths (for some chapter), and I'm not trying to show off or giving instructions or whatever..

You can feel the changes and so am I. Sometimes I just try to give you some spaces with your boyfriend, I seriously have no idea why would you think that way -- about the girlier or whatever thingy.

Ya Imma just ranting like you do, yes I am.


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Like you said, we really should be quiet sometimes. I know you don't like to involve in any drama, and yes, maybe you'll think that I'm those kind of 'unrespective' people, as I always talked about people's stuffs. I don't mind if you think that way, but please, I just wanna say it all out that people wouldn't get in any misunderstanding, like D and ZY&CY's case.

And for the 'respect' and 'privacy' thingy, I not sure whether you're saying I showed others yr blog, okay I'm sorry about that, but one thing I have to let you know is, you have Jack to tell about what you're thinking, but my boyfriend wouldn't listen to me about all these. He's not in the same school with me, I can't expect him to listen to me about all these. I also have my own problem, own thing, and own stories to tell. Since you've been taken so I'd just find D to talk about it. It's not because I found a new or 'better' friend (in a way) so I seldom talk to you nowadays, do you know that? And when I tell him about my thoughts or whatever stuffs, sometimes I'd just show him what you've wrote. Because I wanna let him understand clearer, because I care. I really didn't meant to unrespect you and show others yr PERSONAL blog, well I'm sorry. Really sorry about that. You can change your blog address if you want, it's okay..

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Maybe we have the different thinking and all that, and that's why we became like this.
I've been crying for few days because of this.
Because of my past, I could hardly believe in friendship. But the moment when I chose to trust it again, what happened?

Well, I can be the quiet one, I can.
Sorry, anyway. (sincerely.)